Im so lost and confused right now.

Im not sure what the hell is wrong with me.

i dunno where my life is heading right now.
i dunno where my studies are heading.
i dunno where my walk with god is at right now.

in fact, im not sure where anything is right now. All i know is there is something really wrong with me.

It feels like there is a whole in my heart or somewhere in my brain.

I think where i am right now,
it feels like im immune to emotions and feeling because right now. I just feel nothing.
Its so hard to explain.

I dont even care right now if my friends all just disappear and i just become the only person in the world...

i think im depressed and emo..

i need someone to wake me up.
Someone just come stab me right now to wake me up with this terrible nightmare which i hate to see become reality.

. . .

I really dunno how to explain this.
I just wish everything could just freeze where it is right now.. I just want everyone to stop moving and everyone to stop changing.
I hate to see people change because it makes me feel like i just dont know them anymore. It makes me even more emo..



What friends?
What family?
who are all of you.


Im just really really confused right now.
feelings just mean nothing to me. When i see someone hurt i just feel nothing. I dont shed a tear for them i dont even want to know whats wrong with them..

all i know is i dont care about them. I dont even care if i dont see them for a while.
Everything is just dark right now.



All this is really killing me on the inside. This cut in my heart is getting deeper and deeper..
It also feels like im getting further into the darkness and further from everyone i know..

i really hate to see this happen and im just so lost..
I need some help.

Im just not the same person you know. Im different on the outside and the inside. Im not the Franny you used to know. I've changed and i hate change.

Really wish everything would just disappear or freeze.

10:51 PM

Three of the most important words in the dictionary:

" I Love You"

is now being thrown around too much.

I dont know about you but to me those words are being used too easily and too frequently too.

Now a days we hear girls saying i love you too ur friends everyday just before they say goodbye!
We even hear guys saying it to girls and they're not evey dating or anything.

soon we will hear the words being sprayed around every day then every 10 hrs then soon we will hear it so often that those 3 words will not even mean anything.

hrmphh

i dunno why im typing all this but i just know that its being used to often and if people dont stop using it so often in around 20 - 30 years, the words will have no meaning.. and i would like those words to have meaning in 20 years.

so yea..

btw definition of ily (according to me =])

I = Me, you
Love = Liking a person so much that you will even sacrifice your own life for that person.
You = You, me watevaa..

so yea..
random post.

my singapore will be up soon =]

bah biee

4:43 PM